FMySCI - because spinal cord injury sucks. » Heartbreak

05-11-09(19:44:54)

Anonymous — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:26:44 +0000

I just got a call and got uninvited to a Lake of the Ozarks trip that I’ve gone on for about 4 or 5 years. I had my SCI last march and all of a sudden it’s too “hard” to be around me. It would make them nervous wrecks if they had to worry about me falling or not being able to get up the steps, etc.. into the lake house. So I get to see all of my friends go without me to the funnest thing that I’ve gotten to experience in my 46 years. FmySCI!!!!!

24-07-09(12:35:44)

Anonymous — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 18:32:24 +0000

My Nana died and travelling with a SCI is so complicated that I won’t be going to her funeral. Besides the only places I’d be able to go is the funeral because all my aunts houses etc. are inaccessible. FMySCI.

24-07-09(2:23:28)

Anonymous — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 13:30:37 +0000

I think today I was getting to the beginning of depression again… I will fight this. I will not let it crush me like before. I am strong enough to fight it and everyone one of you are strong enough too.

I can go months feeling fine and then just one random thing will trigger that sadness, the times when you wake up in the morning and realize “Damn, I still can’t walk”.

18-06-09(13:47:31)

Anonymous — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 17:50:58 +0000

After taking a shower and getting ready for work (which takes 3 times as long now), I was looking at my body in the mirror and I cant belive it’s me. I’m only 28; I want to be sexy and wear cute clothes again; I hate being refered to as the girl in the wheelchair. I am tired of the health issues that go with this (2 uti’s already this year one with a hospital stay). I am sick of being stared at! I hate being cold all of the time living in Florida. I want to go to the beach with my friends and feel sand between my toes! I want the old me back. FMySCI.

15-06-09(21:05:09)

Anonymous — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 03:31:36 +0000

My live-in boyfriend breaking up with me ecause he feels “trapped!” I yelled at him that he has no idea what trapped is. Try being in bed and not even being able to sit up on your elbows nevermind getting yourself out of bed to, God forbid, escape a fire! Or… not being able to feel or move 80% of your body. Try that kind of trapped on for size!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FMySCI.

11-06-09(9:58:30)

Anonymous — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:03:17 +0000

My C7 injury is 23 years old. Have tried everything including stem cell therapy. 2 years ago, my husband of 36 years married a young woman!! Am undergoing divorce this year. Life sucks. I am tired of the pain, weakness and pity I see in family and friends’ faces. One day I will just take all my sleeping pills and end it. I hate this life. I do not believe in God anymore either. Nothing gets better, only deteriorates more everyday. I hate what I have become…….. FMySCI.

08-06-09(19:07:20)

Anonymous — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 23:10:52 +0000

My boyfriend and I have been living together for 8 months. But I feel like I’m losing him due to the increase of lack of intimacy. He went into this relationship knowing what to expect. There are times I wish I could give him more but I can’t because of lack of mobility so he turns towards porn more often. I feel like my heart is slowly breaking in two. Why is he still with me? FMySCI.

05-06-09(21:08:31)

Anonymous — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 05:23:16 +0000

10 years of piano lessons: thousands of dollars.
New piano bought less than a year ago: $6,500.
Breaking my neck at C4, and knowing I’ll never be able to do the thing I loved most again: priceless.

FMySCI.